My dancing dog the morning of his amputation surgery. |
Benji was my dancing dog.
I first saw him when he was 3 months old and on death row.
I was 20, a full-time college student living in an apartment in an old Victorian house (translation: student slums) in Lawrence, Kansas. Some friends were heading to the local animal shelter to adopt a dog. They invited me to ride along. "What fun!" I thought.
I tried to talk Bill and Risa into adopting the German Shepherd / Doberman mix puppy, but they had their eye on another pup. The puppy that had captured my heart was scheduled to be euthanized in less than a week. He haunted my waking thoughts and my night-time dreams.
The day of his doom, I called the shelter to tell them to hold him for me. It was one of the best decisions of my life.
I named him Benjamin and called him Benji. He was my life partner and constant companion. He attended classes with me. I moved to a farm for him. Twice. He was an extension of me.
Benji, my Doberman / German Shepherd mutt and heart dog. |
Until they weren't. He was 9 years old when I heard the verdict: malignant.
Both veterinarians I consulted recommended amputation. The alternative was letting the cancer take him within the year.
Of course I chose amputation. Although the word was like a dagger to my heart. No matter what the vets said, I couldn't wrap my mind around Benji having only three legs. This was before the internet. I couldn't surf the web for information. This was before the Tripawds community. I couldn't take advantage of online support.
I was quite sure I would have a handicapped dog after the surgery. Oh dog! I was wrong.
Benji came through the surgery just fine and, in fact, got to come home earlier than expected. Aftercare included wound care, painkillers, and antibiotics. Seeing him took my breath away and I felt heart broken, even though he was already getting along very well on three legs.
Benji post amputation surgery |
The true challenge was keeping Benji from bothering the incision. I had to return to work and he couldn't come with me. The cone did not deter him and after he ripped his stitches out, I had to add a muzzle.
The amazing thing to me was how well he adapted. In fact, as he healed from surgery it became obvious that very little had changed. No, he no longer could dance with me, but he was so terrific on three legs that people didn't even notice the missing leg. Amputation bothered me; it didn't bother Benji at all.
Benji was 13 when he was diagnosed with liver cancer. Because of his age I refused radiation treatment. I just couldn't put him through invasive and painful treatment. With a special diet and medication, Benji celebrated his 14th birthday before he passed away in his sleep. Five of those years were spent as a tripawd. A very happy tripawd.
My tripawd dog Benji at age 10 |
Benji taught me many life lessons. Here's some of what I learned about tripawd dogs:
- Make sure you consult with a veterinarian that you trust. A compassionate "bedside" manner is an essential in my book.
- Amputation bothers humans, not dogs. As horrific as it sounds and looks immediately post-op, dogs get on with life and certainly don't care how it looks.
- Keep your dog lean and fit. This was very much in Benji's favor and helped him to very quickly adjust to tripawd life. Check out rehabilitation resources and services to help your dog build muscle in it's other legs.
- Get your own feelings of panic under control in order to make good decisions. In addition, your dog will definitely pick up on your stress level and how you're dealing (or not dealing) with the situation.
- Take advantage of the support of others who've gone through a similar experience.
- Be positive. Be hopeful.
- Learn from your dog: live fully in the present moment.
You can read more about Benji's cancer in the post I wrote about my tripawd dog Benji for the Give Cancer the Paw blog hop.
I'm participating in the Caring for Critters Round Robin, hosted by Jodi at Heart Like A Dog. Each participating blogger writes about their own experience with a medical condition, injury, disease or illness. The blogger then "passes the baton" to the next, sort of like a relay race in words, online. Yesterday, Kelsie Merwine from It's Dog or Nothing told us about Canine Parvovirus. I'll be passing the baton to Mel Freer from No Dog About It. Mel is sharing information about the Rabies Vaccine and potential reactions.
We
are participating in the Caring For Critters Round Robin hosted by
Heart Like a Dog. Caring for Critters is where you can read about pet
parents' experiences with various health concerns to gain insight and
hope for issues you may face. - See more at:
http://peggyfrezon.blogspot.com/2014/09/caring-for-super-seniors.html#sthash.0QyR84mL.dpuf
We
are participating in the Caring For Critters Round Robin hosted by
Heart Like a Dog. Caring for Critters is where you can read about pet
parents' experiences with various health concerns to gain insight and
hope for issues you may face. - See more at:
http://peggyfrezon.blogspot.com/2014/09/caring-for-super-seniors.html#sthash.0QyR84mL.dpuf
We
are participating in the Caring For Critters Round Robin hosted by
Heart Like a Dog. Caring for Critters is where you can read about pet
parents' experiences with various health concerns to gain insight and
hope for issues you may face. - See more at:
http://peggyfrezon.blogspot.com/2014/09/caring-for-super-seniors.html#sthash.0QyR84mL.dpuf
We
are participating in the Caring For Critters Round Robin hosted by
Heart Like a Dog. Caring for Critters is where you can read about pet
parents' experiences with various health concerns to gain insight and
hope for issues you may face. - See more at:
http://peggyfrezon.blogspot.com/2014/09/caring-for-super-seniors.html#sthash.0QyR84mL.dpuf
We
are participating in the Caring For Critters Round Robin hosted by
Heart Like a Dog. Caring for Critters is where you can read about pet
parents' experiences with various health concerns to gain insight and
hope for issues you may face. - See more at:
http://peggyfrezon.blogspot.com/2014/09/caring-for-super-seniors.html#sthash.0QyR84mL.dpuf
What a lovely post Sue, thank you for adding this to the Round Robin.
ReplyDeleteBenji sounds like a lovely boy. Aren't dogs just the most amazing beings? They can 'see' beyond so many things, I'm so glad they don't understand the word 'can't.'
I can see how it would be harder on the human.
What a great, yet sad tale. We are learning about dogs becoming tripods right now. One of our good friends got an infection in his leg and it only got worse. It went on for a couple months, was not cancer, but would not go away and he ended up having his front left leg amputated. He is doing really well, happier than ever and building strength to walk more and more. Bailie and I don't care at all, but Katie is scared of him now which is sad as they were real close. Poor Cody is only about 4 yrs old, black and adopted from a shelter by his current family when he was around 1.
ReplyDeleteSue, not sure if my other comments went through (google...grrr) but i just want to thank you for 1) an insightful, great post and 2) having the courage to go through the amputation journey when there was so little support available. Because of you and Benji, life is that much easier for pets and pawents who are taking their own #Tripawd journey today. 3-paws up to you both, may Benji's story live on and inspire others for all time!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Jerry Dawg and I see you know what you're barking about since you're a tripawd! I don't know about courage. I just knew I could not spare my Benji. He was my best life teacher :-) There are so many wonderful resources today, thank dog!
DeleteThank you for sharing Beji's story and taking part in the Caring for Critters Round Robin. The more people learn that pets can live happy lives with disabilities, the less animals will die before their time.
ReplyDeleteThis was a great post Sue, thank you for sharing your experience with us. I am so glad you made the decision and that you had 5 great years with Benji. People are scared to amputate and you were strong to do it way back then. Some great lessons you shared with us.
ReplyDeleteThanks, JoAnn. At the time I didn't know of any dogs who'd had amputations. In fact, it was years later that I finally met some. It was a very scary time in my life and thank goodness I had 2 fantastic vets to rely on.
DeleteBeautiful dog, beautiful story. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteHow lucky Benji was that you were able to make that decision for him. It has been encouraging to me to see the shift in the way disabilities(in people and pets) are viewed now compared to thirty years ago.
ReplyDeleteI wrote a very long reply that Google suddenly snatched. At the time Benji became a tripawd, society viewed things very differently! Hopefully things will continue to improve.
DeleteHooray for you and Benji finding each other, and hooray for all the wonderful lessons are special pups teach us. I also learned those life lessons from our courageous, living-large 3-legged pup. It must have been so hard to go through that in the days before online support. Some of the friends I made online when Abby went through her amp/cancer journey I would consider some of my closest friends!
ReplyDeleteThis is an awesome post! Benji was so cute. <3
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful story, Sue! From saving Benji from that shelter to making the decision to have that surgery, you gave him the best life possible. Dogs' resilience is amazing, but you took this on at a time when you didn't know how it could be. I'm sure it was difficult getting through all of Benji's illnesses, but what a wonderful life you had together. I'm so glad that you shared your story.
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